The First Step

After many, many years of going back and forth about getting my tubes reversed (TR) I have finally decided, through much prayer, to get it done. I am so very excited! I have been doing a lot of research on where to go and I finally found Dr. Rogers in Tennessee. I read and reread the website over and over again. I cried when I read the testimonies and at the same time I was hesitant because who's to say those testimonies are even real, right?

I went to the hospital where I had my TL done and went to medical records. I sat in that chair with my back straight up, reading the questions and checking the little boxes carefully like I was taking the damn ACTs again. Operative Report. Check. Pathology Report. Check. I took my time like I was rewriting the Bible. I didn't want one mistake. When I finished I turned it in to the clerk at the computer and she blew my mind. " Oh, I can print this out for you right now," she said. I was stunned. My heart slammed against my ribs. I could hear myself breathing. " Well, I don't want to have to pay for the records," I said," That's why I requested the records to go to my doctor for review." Breathe.....breathe.....baboom...baboom. " Oh, I won't charge you. It's only going to be a couple of pages." I nodded. This was it. My whole life would change depending on what was on these papers. I felt tears sting the back of my eyes. She really had no idea what she was doing for me. Being able to walk out with records in hand would mean I would know the answer to my future even sooner. I wouldn't have to be a nervous wreck trying to find out if they mailed the records; if they received them. She handed me a brown envelope. I could have sworn my skeleton was rattling inside of me. This was it...... I said my thank yous and told her I appreciated that she did that for me then turned around and walked out. When I made it outside, I opened it trying to read the words on the paper to see if I could diagnose myself. It was like I was reading Japanese!!! Note to self: You are not a doctor, you don't know doctore speak and paramedic school did not prep you for this.