And so I tell you, keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. Luke 11:9

Sunday, January 24, 2010

The First Step

After many, many years of going back and forth about getting my tubes reversed (TR) I have finally decided, through much prayer, to get it done. I am so very excited! I have been doing a lot of research on where to go and I finally found Dr. Rogers in Tennessee. I read and reread the website over and over again. I cried when I read the testimonies and at the same time I was hesitant because who's to say those testimonies are even real, right?

I went to the hospital where I had my TL done and went to medical records. I sat in that chair with my back straight up, reading the questions and checking the little boxes carefully like I was taking the damn ACTs again. Operative Report. Check. Pathology Report. Check. I took my time like I was rewriting the Bible. I didn't want one mistake. When I finished I turned it in to the clerk at the computer and she blew my mind. " Oh, I can print this out for you right now," she said. I was stunned. My heart slammed against my ribs. I could hear myself breathing. " Well, I don't want to have to pay for the records," I said," That's why I requested the records to go to my doctor for review." Breathe.....breathe.....baboom...baboom. " Oh, I won't charge you. It's only going to be a couple of pages." I nodded. This was it. My whole life would change depending on what was on these papers. I felt tears sting the back of my eyes. She really had no idea what she was doing for me. Being able to walk out with records in hand would mean I would know the answer to my future even sooner. I wouldn't have to be a nervous wreck trying to find out if they mailed the records; if they received them. She handed me a brown envelope. I could have sworn my skeleton was rattling inside of me. This was it...... I said my thank yous and told her I appreciated that she did that for me then turned around and walked out. When I made it outside, I opened it trying to read the words on the paper to see if I could diagnose myself. It was like I was reading Japanese!!! Note to self: You are not a doctor, you don't know doctore speak and paramedic school did not prep you for this.

1 comment:

  1. Congrats!! I have also decided to get mine done! I suffer from PTLS really bad. DH and I are also excited at the possibility of another baby!!
    I have a Blog about PTLS and my reversal journey as well!